Why is it that I have the most motivation and drive at night… I’ve just come off an incredible, healthy, and heartwarming conversation with one of my closest and bestest friends. I thank You, Lord, every day that you brought her and I together. Our friendship means the world to me.
Another friend sent me a text today with a link to a beautiful write-up about getting back on track. My best friend is lending a hand for the next few weeks. I also spent some simple time with a fourth friend today; our time together wasn’t fancy, expensive, or lavish, but the simplicity of having a coffee together, conversing, and just having the ability to spend time with one of my closest friends, is a blessing.
My closest friends and family are aware of my current situation and state-of-mind. The little things mean so much… I have been through a shit load of crap in the last 11 years. I am now beginning to see the direction I need to travel; it is not entirely clear yet, but I know that with hope, faith, love, and kindness, the future is going to be beautiful. Thank you to my friends that touched my path today… I’m on the yellow brick road to creating a life that is overflowing with love, faith, and happiness.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 NIV
Every morning I wake up to the Elvis Duran show. This morning they were talking about relationships + people taking breaks. Not breaking up, just taking a “break.” They mentioned Lady Gaga + Taylor Kinney (Lancaster’s own!) taking a “break.”
A man called in + said that his wife wanted to take a break. There were kids involved. No rules, guidelines, or anything was set by the man + wife. He sounded sad, hurt, + disappointed.
If there’s anything I learned from my 9-year relationship ordeal, it’s that communication is key. Any type of relationship, friendships or romantic relationships, need good, clear communication.
Friendships + relationships take work from both sides. It’s not a one-way street.
Another thing I’ve learned is not to be afraid to tell someone how you feel. Tomorrow is never guaranteed.
With you, however, I am afraid. Very afraid.
I’m honestly afraid for this country with the 2 candidates we have running for POTUS. The way the country + society is evolving with the hate, gun violence, racism, etc – this is not the country that I want to be a part of. Something has got to change, but how does one person actively change the nation, the world?
This is something that I’ve always been passionate about; making a difference, helping people, learning about + understanding others, being there for people when they need it, regardless of our relationship. So honestly, sitting here, wide awake at 4:30 am in the morning, how does one person effectively change the world?
In reference to my AWTR post, I do believe that people are initially good; however, our society + life interrupt that idea, + influence their behavior. People cheat, lie, steal, mislead, dishonest, murder, etc – humanity as a whole, I believe start off good, but then change over time into people that practice negative + bad behavior. Hence all of the issues surrounding the Presidential election + what’s currently going on in our nation.
So back to my original question… How do I, as one single person, change the world? Answer that.
What would you say to me if it was our last day or night together?
In the two years that I’ve been single, I’ve talked to many guys – two of which we both had a mutual interest in each other, one maybe (that’s still up for debate), + one I did go on a date with. And each and every time they fell off the face of the planet. This is not okay, guys. I am sick + tired of dealing with this crap and I certainly don’t have time for it.
It’s not respectful. If you have any respect for me and are the least bit considerate, you’d at least give me an explanation, even if it’s a little white lie to make me feel better. It’s better than going from things going well to just completely disappearing.
Read this article, guys. This sums things up pretty well.
Don’t piss me off or you’ll get the door slam. I don’t have time for people who don’t have consideration for others.
I have a friend whom I recently had an important discussion with. I learned a lot from said discussion. I’m not going into any specifics out of respect for him, but from this discussion came respect, honesty, and truth.
I think it helped me move on a bit.
We’re friends. I’m always here for you.
Nothing new to say
Nothing new to report ’cause the future happened yesterday
If I could tell the truth
I could make you stay
But forever seems so far away
I fell apart in your arms
For the last time
And I felt free to do what I want
Because of the things you told me
I will learn to live again
For now I’m breaking
All the things I couldn’t mend without escaping
I will learn to love again